Why I don't call myself a 'Lightworker' anymore

Why I don't call myself a 'Lightworker' anymore

Posted by Helen Crosbie on 5th Jun 2019

If you've ever spent any time with anyone from what I refer to as the "Spiritual Community," you will have heard the terms "love and light" and "lightworker" being used rather a lot. You may even use them yourself, or describe yourself as a lightworker.

I want to be clear that this isn't a rant or a bashing article; Lightworker is a term I used to use to describe myself, but I realised after a time that it represents a basic misunderstanding of our spiritual purpose here on earth at this time.

When I talk about the Spiritual Community, I should clarify that I mean those of us who are mostly outside of mainstream religion, but who work with our psychic and spiritual gifts in some capacity, whether paid or not. Many of us work as alternative healers, holistic therapists or clairvoyants, and most of us feel drawn to a common cause for good.

There is a lot of good, but there are also a lot of egos, which I suppose is to be expected, but the one thing that most agree upon is that they work for the light i.e. they try to do good for humanity.

And this is what I want to talk about today.


The very term "lightworker" is problematic and one that we really need to outgrow as a community.


Whilst there are of course dark forces that do not work for the common good, in this world and the universe at large. On some level there has always been a battle waging between good and evil, but we've reached a point in our evolution now, where we really have to move past that.

So I'm going to go out on a limb here and say that it's actually childish and spiritually immature to think that it's all about good versus bad or light versus dark.

After all, who here among us can say that they are 100% good and loving at all times?

Well none of us of course, it would be dishonest at best or delusional at worst to say that we are completely good and never have a bad thought or do anything that isn't totally for the highest good at all times.

We should also consider that good and bad are highly subjective notions, and what is good to one person may be very bad to another person or being. This is the very basis of the ethical argument for veganism after all.

What I've come to realise is that it's not about Light versus Dark anymore, it's about Integration.

The point of this lifetime is not to shy away from or hide from our darkness, and pretend it isn't there.

It doesn't matter how many times you tell me that you don't feel anger any more (yes, seriously, I know somebody who says that about themselves) we are still human, and as such we are going to have good and bad experiences, and do good and bad things. Our whole lives are made up or light and darkness, good and bad, joy and suffering so why would we try to pretend otherwise?

The point is not to reject the darkness, but to integrate it. To see it, name it, understand it and accept those darker aspects as integral and necessary parts of our whole being and to become one with all parts of ourselves.

How can we ever grow and become whole beings if we are rejecting an entire side of ourselves because we fear it?

The simple answer is - you can't.

Many years ago, when I was doing a lot of meditation and contemplation, my spirit guides showed me an image. It was me dressed as a harlequin. I was aware in my meditations that I travelled to both light and dark realms, and I wasn't afraid of the darkness.

In the image, I wore a suit of black and white cloth representing the dark and the light. They told me that part of my path was to work in the light and the dark too.

At the time it felt a little frightening, and I still preferred to hide behind the moniker of "lightworker" for many years after that. It sounded pretty cool, like a superhero or something, but as time went on, I realised that the light is only half of the story.

We cannot grow or ascend as the whole, spiritual beings we truly are, if we are at war within ourselves. Moreover, for as long as we are at war in our own hearts, the world cannot know peace.

It's time to drop the titles once and for all, and instead focus of the work of togetherness, accepting each aspect for what it is, and honouring the darkness for its sacred purpose in this lifetime.

The darkness allows us to experience the light. Without it, light would have no meaning. Without the contrast of pain and suffering, joy wouldn't feel so precious or love so powerful.

The dark isn't to be feared, but integrated into ourselves as a truly holistic being, enabling us to grow-up on a spiritual level, and in doing so, help the world to ascend to the higher plain that we know is waiting for us.

The longer and harder we reject it, the worse it will seem to be and the more pain and conflict we will be shown until we stop hiding from it.

You are a whole being, holistic in nature and this is a world of duality. This isn't a practise run and we should not be waiting for the next lifetime to be different or "better" to achieve what we want.

We need to make this world a better one, and like the prodigal child, the darkness in us needs to be accepted, loved, appreciated and honoured as a vital part of our reality and of our whole selves too.

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Originally posted on my blog www.HolisticVegan.co.uk on 15th May 2019

If you are feeling lost or facing the darker side of yourself, remember you can always reach out to me for a spiritual guidance reading! I am here to help and guide you on your spiritual mission on earth and beyond.

You are not alone, and many of the difficult experiences we are having are shared by more than one person. We are working individually, but at the same time as one, clearing the collective karma for the world to assist the whole of humanity in its ascension to a higher spiritual plane. 

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